I frantically called my friend and vented/cried/vowed to never eat sweets again until the magic number reappeared. I felt guilty and mad and sad and upset all day.
HOW STUPID!!! Why should a metallic measuring instrument determine my happiness quotient? Why does a number determine my eating habits, my exercise routine and the way I treat my children. More importantly, Why do I let it?
The answer: I haven't learned to truly love my body yet. I don't understand that my beauty, goodness and worth DON'T have anything to do with my outside appearance. I haven't learned that the way I treat my body is a reflection of my love for ME-- the real me that I am not quite sure I am ready for everyone to see. The real me that is insecure and unsure.
This month I am letting that ME come out of the closet to experience life. I want to learn that I really am LOVED. That I really AM BEAUTIFUL. That I am of WORTH. And that I DESERVE to treat myself well, and not PUNISH myself for caloric misdeeds. I am coming out and coming to myself.
I have linked up with the Nester and will write each day in October-- filling you in on my journey to loving my body. I'll have recipes to share, exercises that push me to become stronger and moments of emotional and mental growth. Will you join me? Will you change your body image with me this month?
27 Days to a Healthy Body Image
Week One: The Mental Game
Day 2: Cleaning Out The Closet
Day 3: The Great Purge
Day 4: A New Mantra
Day 5: Fixing a Trouble Spot (abs)
Day 6:Pucker Up Ladies
Week Two: The Physical Component
Day 7: Hawaiian Popped Corn
Day 8: Gonna Make You Sweat (Everybody Dance Now)
Day 9: Laugh, Smile, Sweat : Zumba Style
Day 10: Finding a Fit : Anita's Experience
Day 11: Finding Something to Love
Day 12: On The Flip Side
Week Three: Facing Food (And Other Addictions)
Day 13: Greek Style Potatoes
Day 14: Food Issues & Addictions
Day 15: Enjoying Enough
Day 16: Recognition (Finally)
Day 17: Set Backs and Momentum
Day 18: Body Image Resources
Week Four: Filling the Void
Day 19: Baked Apples
Day 20: Filling the Void with Trust
Day 21: Workout Wednesday- Wall Sit Inferno
Day 22: Positive Thoughts
Day 23: Doing Your Best
Week Five: Happily Ever After
Day 24: Harvest Chicken Wrap
Day 25: Filling Up At the True Source
Day 26: Push It (Workout Wednesday)
Day 27: Your Happily Ever After
The glorious picture of a woman embracing the light of the day is from bulstablog.wordpress.com